The Middle Days of Heinrich Himmler

Our hero was very much intrigued by the new viewpoints he learned to see through Scientology. The guru worship was a bit of a turn-off but he managed to ignore that part for the time being. He grew into the group, developed friendships, converted his girl friend into a scientologist, then converted her into his wife, but then, in the early eighties, a brutal cleansing of the church of scientology occured and it had a sweeping effect. The comradery in the mission was replaced with a heartless push for results and by a hair our hero jumped ship.

His wife who had become a devoted Church-of-Scientologist had to convince him to forgo all those squirrels with their very appealing ways of interpreting the intentions of their guru. But the unwaivering trust was gone, the seed had been planted that there was something wrong somewhere. He thought that maybe, just maybe, it would be just out here on the fringes, far away from ‘source’, that things were going wrong. In order to find out and to be at ‘source,’ their beautiful and comfortable camp in the woods just North of Frankfurt was broken down, the house sold and off he and his wife went to sign a billion-year contract and become Sea Org members in Los Angeles.

Very quickly Heinrich learned that the distance from ‘source’ did not make a difference. The warmth – theta – he hadexperienced in the group when he had initially joined, was not to be found at ‘source’ either. He noticed this clearly when he needed help getting his belongings from the harbor and nobody could help because of targets to make and projects to finish. His WOG friends at work (Worthy Old Gentleman – derogative word for a non-scientologist) back in the home land would not have hesitated for a moment. Had he not made such a bombastic exit in his fatherland, he would have gone back right there.

But it went fairly well for eight, nine month and then all hell broke lose. The events might be the content of another story, but it is sufficient to say that our hero ended up on the RPF – the church-of-scientologic version of the concentration or reeducation camp.

Still believing in the correctness of the system, Heinrich stayed for the time the highest org needed to do a review of his case. There was no doubt in his mind that they would see what was so clearly wrong. To make a long story short, they did not and our hero officially and by the rules, left the church-of-scientology. As promised he was then declared an arch enemy, in the churchie parlance declared a suppressive person – scum for short. He thought that the main reason for this draconian handling was to make sure there was no communication between him and his beloved wife, as she was such a nicely moldable subject that the Sea Org certainly did not want to lose her.

One of the most difficult facts for him to face was that he had brought his wife into the church-of-scientology and lost her there. It was difficult, to say it mildly, for him to meet with her one day while she was accompanied by a watch dog, and sign his agreement for a divorce. Our hero still played by the churches rules because at this time he still believed that he would ‘handle his situation’ and rejoin this group. This was a believe that he soon thereafter lost when he exposed himself to information about the church-of-scientology that was not available to him when he was a member of the Sea Org.

The hallmark of a hero is the conviction that he can not be stopped by an adversary, that he always finds another way to steer around problems. So, despite that fact that he felt a deep loss for his friendships, and guilt for losing his wife to this group, he quickly went back on his path and continued his spiritual training and processing – just not within but without the church-of-scientology.

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